I asked them wether i could celebrate a party.
I did not gave specific reasons why.
I'm asking just to show respect~
undoubtly, The answer was NO! I knew it all along, what is there to be expect.
Why could'nt they just give a simple No for an answer, they had to spoil my mood and make bad remarks about my past actions.
'' NO~ we're not in. You Can't!''
''Well we wanted to celebrate it after the mid-year, and its the right time.''
''CANNOT CANNOT, why must you ? After your result is out! It's not like you're gonna score high in your mid-year so no need to celebrate , if you do SO WHAT ? Later during Olevels you'll eventually score something that we are not happy of and then yu'll invite SO MANY GUYS later something happened between yu people.''
'' We are all friends. Nvm, i'm not gonna have the party anymore.''
'' GOOD THEN. you shoud'nt ask me in the 1st place~ you're wasting my time.''
That night i wanted to spend a night out with the team upon winning champs, He rejected my request.
'' why do you wanna go out ? ''
'' To celebrate the win, everyone is goin. ''
'' NO, nobody is goin to drive you there! ''
'' I've found transport ''
'' WHY CAN'T YOU STAY AT HOME! IT'S SOME USLESS INTERSCHOOL ANYWAYS.''
'' Yeah, whatever. I'm not goin anymore. ''
I don't expect them to understand what is important and means alot to me. They have their own point of view they would'nt understand anyhows, but at least some encouragement and caring gestures that'll do. My life is a constant dissapointment to them, no matter what i do it's always wrong.
I got 6a's for PMB and i got scolded, '' only 6 a's ?! why not 8? and bla bla bla .. ''
Got 2nd place in the singing competition, '' you're just lucky, so what if it's No.2. ''
Birthday [ Just wanted a small celebration with my friends. ]- '' Sweet sixteen so what ?! It's not like yur turning 90. ''
and many more which i think it is not worthy of remembering ..
And eventually i felt hopeless and decided i don't need to care what will they say or what comments they will give , it's hopeless although i do get gadgets and luxuries i wanted.
Sometimes they will treat me nice,showering me with gifts and ..
Sometimes i wonder why? I am very lucky if compared to some, so this is just one of my constant rants and complaints, just to loosen me up don't need to pay much attention to.
Family- you can't live without them , you can live without them.
In my case, that is.
Lots of love from Rhenda.