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14 September, 2007, 11:26 PM
Not my average normal day. =(
I'm not in a very good mood right now as i'm posting this blog. I guess my blog is my only friend/family in the world to share with ? It won't criticise me or hurt me in anyway,anyhow.I started my day with a fairly down mood , it went worst when time passes. I was being attacked emotionally, maybe what they said were true~ I'm useless and stupid. makes me wonder ..Is that it ? HER over me, i lost~ i just can't believe that. It's not my fault that i'm born that wayy, I'm imperfect. YES i admit.but why her ?? what can i do with it ? It's not my choice. I try to boost myself esteem and i end up projecting the wrong image for me. Nothing have been goin the right way for me this year, It might change someday,sometime ? i don't know when. Putting up all the fake smiles and false impression is tiring, i want to be my ownself. Do i deserve all this despite all the gadgets and money spending ? It's not like i wanted those, they don't realise me they never did and never will ..
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Hello! I'm Rhenda!
CHMS, Brunei & Trinity College,Melbourne's Alumni. Uni Student.
Oh yes, My strenghts ? A shopaholic who can spend $1000 a day without feeling guilty, a slacker & Booze lover.
I might look as if i dont care but if you get to know me better, you won't regret =)
I love making friends randomly, in a bar, while jogging, while sipping a cup coffee, in a library because its life.
Everyday, Im trying to laugh as hard as i can, to love as much as life allows, to treat everyone with respect, dignity & love, because I know life is short.
& , Don't you love that warm illuminating sensation when drinking a cup of hot chocolate on a cold winter's day. I know i love it =)
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14 September, 2007, 11:26 PM
Not my average normal day. =(
I'm not in a very good mood right now as i'm posting this blog. I guess my blog is my only friend/family in the world to share with ? It won't criticise me or hurt me in anyway,anyhow.I started my day with a fairly down mood , it went worst when time passes. I was being attacked emotionally, maybe what they said were true~ I'm useless and stupid. makes me wonder ..Is that it ? HER over me, i lost~ i just can't believe that. It's not my fault that i'm born that wayy, I'm imperfect. YES i admit.but why her ?? what can i do with it ? It's not my choice. I try to boost myself esteem and i end up projecting the wrong image for me. Nothing have been goin the right way for me this year, It might change someday,sometime ? i don't know when. Putting up all the fake smiles and false impression is tiring, i want to be my ownself. Do i deserve all this despite all the gadgets and money spending ? It's not like i wanted those, they don't realise me they never did and never will ..
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