I'm not in a very good mood right now as i'm posting this blog. I guess my blog is my only friend/family in the world to share with ? It won't criticise me or hurt me in anyway,anyhow.I started my day with a fairly down mood , it went worst when time passes. I was being attacked emotionally, maybe what they said were true~ I'm useless and stupid. makes me wonder ..Is that it ?
HER over me, i lost~ i just can't believe that. It's not my fault that i'm born that wayy, I'm imperfect. YES i admit.but why her ?? what can i do with it ? It's not my choice. I try to boost myself esteem and i end up projecting the wrong image for me. Nothing have been goin the right way for me this year, It might change someday,sometime ? i don't know when.Putting up all the fake smiles and false impression is tiring, i want to be my ownself. Do i deserve all this despite all the gadgets and money spending ? It's not like i wanted those, they don't realise me they never did and never will ..